At some point, I felt I'm all alone, despite I have a lot of friends and a good number of true friends that I'm sure they will always be there by my side.
One day I asked myself : "why do I feel so ?!" But as usual there was no answer.
I think I had a problem talking with myself.
Okay, add this problem to myself problems sheet.
Another question " why do I have such a problem ?! I was always talking to myself and it was always the best listener. "
This time I heard the answer .. "Because you're afraid of facing yourself .. You're afraid of facing the truth. The truth that you have failed !! And the other truth that you have lost and still losing everything you have ever had. And you're doing that for no reason .. You're losing because of nothing .. Why did you accept the truth that you're a loser ?! Why did you give up ?! Tell me !! " .
I was surprised .. Myself is talking to me and it's also about to punish me !
Okay I'll tell you .. The reason is very simple .. I found that there's nothing worth fighting for. Very simple.
"Really!! Is that your answer ?!! You must be kidding me !! How could you turn to such a hopeless person ?!! " .
Let me tell you how .. Do you know the sound of the clock ?! Tik Tok .. It was just like that. I tried fighting for things that worth fighting for -as I thought- , but as usual I was mistaken about them.
"And you decided that there's nothing worth fighting for because you were mistaken about just few things ?!! How come !! " .
I think there is a little misunderstanding, I meant there is nothing worth fighting for in my life not in general.
"What a difference !! I can't believe that I'm talking to you, you were a good example in hope and believing that tomorrow is a new chance not a usual day as you're saying now! "
Hahahahahaha .. Which dreams are you talking about ?! I don't dream .. I just know that tomorrow is another day to be wasted from my silly life.
"I can't believe what I'm hearing !! What happened to you and changed you that much ?!! Please tell me ! " .
I don't want to remember anything of what happened .. I'm full of joy that I have forgotten everything.
"But you didn't, you still remember everything I can see that in your eyes .. Please tell me " .
You know what ?! Stop talking with me .. I'm really tired. I'm leaving, See you.
"But ..... "
Bye .. I said Bye.
Presenter : Hello, everybody. Today we're going to talk about " SE ". Do you know what's it at first ?! *The Audience are looking to each other, silently* Presenter : Come on, just any of you try to say anything even if it's wrong. That's not an exam. Come on for god sake! *The Audience watching in silent with smiles on their faces till a sound from the back ended this silent saying "May I" ?!* Presenter : Finally! You can tell us about yourself at first. A : My name is Anna and I'm a 22 Businesses Administration student. Presenter : Okay, Anna. Tell us what you know about the " S E ". Anna : Actually, I don't know its definition and what do the two letters stand for. But, I think we may guess it if you give us some hints. Presenter : Sounds good, but why don't I give you the hints and you try to figure it out. I think that's fair enough, isn't it ?! Anna : Yes, Of course. *The ...
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